Nothing New

Today, my work friend is taking off days for 30 effective days, the reason why she is taking that, because she is preparing for her wedding. Congrats her, I am happy for her, but I realize, the works will be hard without her, actually, why this is will be hard, because our boss is so weird, easy mad and I think he is very weird. I am afraid that I am not able to handle alone. But I believe I will pass that day. I hope our boss will be moved soon. LOL...

Anyway, have a nice evening...

Social Life

I think lately I have been streesing with some negative minds and other things... I need to find some new friends, real and virtual. My friends are busy with their own things. So... Maybe this is me... I need to find health social life...

Good luck, Joe.

Let's Go Start Activity

Just got up from my one hour sleep, I thin I am ready to go to office after shower and prepare some stuffs. Jakarta, the city where I lives. Always have crazy traffic. From my house until my office is taking 1 hour normally, but It can be more than 2 hours in traffic jam hours. So better hurry or will be trapped.

Good morning, Indonesia.

Sunday

Tomorrow will be monday again *deep sigh* I know... Actually I love every days, but I hate to remember tomorrow shall start work again. It's not because I hate the works, but because the condition of my family is not healthy, my mom still sick, she is hopeless. Kinda sad and kinda upset plus angry. Oh... I shouldn't negative thingking... I am hoping to God, so she will be health again.

Anyway... I am trying to make nice, glad the day after will be off day. By the way, I still haven't make Top 100 Tracks, I don't know should I keep or make the new one. Blame to the time... Hehehe...

And... I did not go to church today, I know, I am wrong.

Sorry

I am sorry for being like that

I don't wanna go back, I just wanna live and end with victory.

Vacations

I think I need vacation so much, vacation is not always travelling, but enjoying something fun and make me relax. Beside I don't have much money, I think spending vacation in my home and doing fun activities will be okay. I know, I can't, because my mom is sick. She has cancer. Kinda hard to know that. My dad is take care her, cause all of her kids including me are busy with school and works. This is because the conditions. I feel bad for my family.

Anyway... I realize I won't have off days since I know where I am working and what situation and condition with the place I works, so just enjoy my time... and keep on dreaming, at least I pretend to be better. LOL. Pathetic.

Monday

I used to hate when Monday came, well kinda still. Because of the day we should back work. Actually, monday is a nice day to start the activities, but if you don't love your job, it would be suck. I am glad I have job, I am thankful to Jesus because I have job, even I am still trying to love my job. One day I will understand.

Thanks Jesus, Please guide me in this work. Amen.

Mirror Mirror On The Wall

My friends are hanging out without inviting me, I think I need my time alone. I just need some support, but my family needs me the most. Me, myself and I.

Confident

Confident...

I lost you, where are you...

Let me start the new one...

Don't care with other poeple says about me...

I wanna be confident...

Again

Love It Or Fuck It

Tomorrow is friday. So with whatever reasons I must go to office. It's funny, It is not because I am not thankful to God or whatever, even sounds like that. I really don't like my job. But I should go to it. Why I hate my job? Let's see:

1. I don't like the tradition of the instuition. (I can't explain here)
2. There is no reward, only punishment. What the fuck?
3. My education is not worth for this job
4. And many more

The reason I should stay is, lots of money wasted for this, physic and mental. Actually I did this for my mom. She pushed me so much to be like this., but right now she is sick, I can't complaint. I wanna quit and looking for better job, and stay in Jakarta with worth money, but I know, that will be not that easy, or I should looking for side job... Maybe after the boss is changed and hopefully the change will be easier with time and everything.

Even like that, I am thankful to Jesus, because He put me back to Jakarta, so I still can breath for some reasons. Hopefully I will find my answers soon. I know the decision is on me.

Gong Xi Fat Choi

Today is Chinese's New Year, so this is off day. Lucky me staying in Indonesia. So I want to say Gong Xi Fat Choi, I am not chinese but lot of them lives here.

2 days lately I plays Prince of Persia on Facebook, it is old game. I used to play them when I am still using MS-Dos on my very first computer. I never finish the game, because so hard and kinda scary, I mean the place. I don't know why I still have a little bit of scare when I play that game. LOL.

Models

Male Models. They are strong, handsome, beauty of men, and look so perfectly. Have a shape, have a look, sexy when naked. Always have fans with girls and also boys.

Female Models. They are always beautiful, pretty and many of them. They are always popular than males. Because they are females. They also have guys and girls fans. Just because of they are model.

Get shape... Get face... Get naked... Have money... But, actually not that easy. I am kinda jeaolus with male models, but when I look to the other side. It's not that glamour and easy. It is also hard works.

The reason why I wrote this, because of some past. I wanna reach my dream, but not to be male models. Hahaha... I don't have them right now, but I can if I want...

The point is, always thankful to Jesus. Just the way you are... Just the way I am...

Goodnight, have a tight sleep...